
A memoir of exile and rebellion—
from the Soviet underground to Portland’s streets
UKRAINIAN MONSTER
AN AMERICAN STORY
Viktoriya Volkov

PDX1: The Grotto
Sidewalk Christ

—Slavic people smile—
through pain.

Oswald Beach, Oregon Coast. 2022


Sept. 2023:
I met Mark for coffee,
but his struggles stood between us.
The shelter had given him bedbugs
and thieves took everything he owned.

PDX2:
The Soldier - Part 1
Kirill was a Soviet soldier back in Russia.
Now he is homeless in my parents' neighborhood—
He wanders into lawns,
tinkers with his dead car,
and smokes whatever he can find.
When he bought a trailer off the street to live in, he parked it next to my parents' property.
Days later, it caught on fire—
burning trees and scorching the toolshed.

PDX2:
The Soldier - Part 2
With his trailer home burned to the ground,
Kirill went back to living in his car.
A few months later, he fell asleep
with a lit cigarette
and his car caught fire.
These are the remains.

PDX3:
82nd Avenue
Trimet bus stop near where my brother
went missing.
A Bible silently testifies.


Chem trail Christ


Singing for my Grandpa Mikhail.
He fought the Nazis
and outlived
the Communists—
but he didn't quite
know what to do
with my American-style
affection.
He let me try anyway.

My brother Mark and sister Alina.
Back when driving was
pretend—
but freedom felt real.

My sister lifting my niece.
My mother always said:
“When you lift others,
you rise.”

Dissident grind at Portland, Oregon’s Rhododendron Garden.

PDX4: 82nd Ave.

PDX5: The States
Motel on 82nd Ave.
Searching for my missing brother.
A woman pacing out front said,
"If I see him, he can stay with me
and I'll call you."
She was the only one who offered
help that night.

PDX6:
Downtown Portland,
under the I-5 overpass

"Who needs a funeral anyways after they’re dead?"

Okay, what's going on here?

PDX7: Portland Rescue Mission
Michelangelo’s The Creation of Adam—
built from photos of homeless lives.